When can I go on holiday trips ??

When was my last holiday trip huh ?? Totally can’t remember ‘coz it was like fucking bloody long time ago.. Izit the Bali trip back in July 2000 ?? Walau, I can’t believe it. This meaning that, since I started my part-time course, I have never been to any holiday before..unless you count those KL and JB trips were holidays ! I see those people around me (you know who you are !!) go holiday like nobody business…trips like few months once !! I have been using all my fucking yearly leave for the exams and trips back to hometown and these hometown trips are not long somemore..! Will my mind go more unstable if I continue to go without any holidays at all ?? I dun have any break at all for the past 5 years…Europe..New York..when can I see you ?? Ok..give me 1 more year..and I swear I will at least go somewhere !! If this carries on.. I dun know whether I’ll go more gone...mentally.