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Miraculously, I went to gym AGAIN this morning. Really wanna get rid of my this little tummy here. Generally, I look skinny ok..just the tummy. Came back and do all the usual Sunday's housework. And, here I'm now.. Oh yeah, I met my imaginary self, Derrick late last nite and we had a consultation session. I just need to do some soul searching and asked some questions:
Me: Why do I always so concern about what other people's thinking ?
Derrick (my imaginary self): Maybe you should learn to adopt a certain level of "dun care" attitude. Just do what you think is right.
Me: I had serious problem with my sleep. I dreamt a lot !!
Derrick: You must learn to let go and see things lightly. Dun think too much.
Me: But, I can't easily forget the past and still holding on to it ?
Derrick: That's the issue, you must learn to look forward and let the unhappy or watever things behind. Move on with your life..
Me: I keep on worry about everthing...unnecessary..from big things to even small little things !
Derrick: Handle one thing at a time. Dun think about the problems until it is really happening on you.
Me: My mind keep on thinking about everything...anything ?
Derrick: Occupied yourself with more activities or hobbies.
Me: At times, I'm too afraid to accept and face challenges !!
Derrick: You must learn to accept the fact..and no matter what happens, life goes on.
Me: Am I going thru a mid-life crisis ?
Derrick: Haha..maybe.. dun take things too seriously..
Me: I guess I'm a commitment phobic too !!
Derrick: Learn to be more responsible and take ownership on things. It might build up your commitment problem along the way..
Me: But at times, I'm fine and feeling strong and happy.
Derrick: You should stay that way all the time.
Me: I can take on everything and feeling on top of the world. I feel extremely fortunate compare to some people.
Derrick: You might be suffering from a split personality.
Me: Eh..why am I talking to you ?? I dun need you. Who the hell are you ?
Derrick: I'm the stronger you. I'm here to guide and help you.
Me: FUCK You. I'm normal and perfectly well. Get the fuck hell out of me..